This is my quiet place to talk about anything I feel like. I will talk about my mental health on here, not mincing my words, so please be mindful. You're welcome to read my rants for more general thoughts and I would prefer if this page, in particular, was not screenshotted, used in any Youtube video or saved on the Wayback Machine. Thank you for respecting my wishes.
Specific squicks I can think of that are already included in entries are mainly health issues (self-harm, slightly disordered eating, chronic illness).
Now, scroll down to read my digital entries... or, if preferred, die by the sword to return home.
* I've a phone contract again :(
* I burned my fingertips off at work trying to pick up the mushroom tray. Honestly, that place makes me never wanna eat again so naturally on my way home I bought three bags of Halloween sweets for £1 each. I've the morning off so I'll peel tonight and put balm on in the morning so I'm not wincing all the time tomorrow evening. I'm doing the manager a favour and working the evening and then the morning so I'll have about eight hours rest between my shifts :/. I got paid though, £980, most of which has gone into my savings and the rest I'm buying clothes with. Disturbia has a pentagram cardigan which is 100% cotton which is nice. My green jumper is ratty and plastic so I might donate and get that to replace it...
* I've been quite ill recently so I apologise for no updates. Main things to happen is that my father has cancelled phone plan as I refuse to talk to him and I had a day off on Saturday so I went out. I took the 7am train to Exeter and had lunch at Pho (three mushroom with veggie broth and some fish sauce ❤) and bought a skirt and jumper second-hand. I get paid Friday so it'll be fine lol
* I've been playing some Va-11 Hall-A which has been good. I'd reccommend it if you like text-based games although it's a bit too much like work at times. I wanna delve back into that vaporwave aesthetic. It was so cool.
* It's my day off and I'm certain work is gonna be the death of me. So tired.... I think it's just me serving tomorrow so if it's heaving I'm gonna KMS on shift. The managers are so shit and I've still got to finish off training at some point but I can feel my life getting sucked out as I work. Don't have time for hobbies or relationships or anything because they're working me too much.
* My copy of Flux and The Dreaming arrived early, though I'm still waiting on my Aaliyah CD and my nan sent me some soap and a butterfly she's knitted which was nice of her. The soap smells nice. It's been raining non-stop for days now...
* I want to find new podcasts or youtubers to watch. I'm kinda sick of just listening to RedLetterMedia and lost media people (even though I love both of those a lot). If you have any true crime or other kinda youtubers you think I'd like, please direct me towards them. :)
* OMG it's been ages. Hi. Um, I had my birthday a week back. I can now legally drink. I had a shift a 6am until 11am today so I was up at 4:45am :/. It was okay though because my copy of Celebrity Skin came in the post so it was a nice suprise. I wasn't expecting it until the First of September so thanks MusicMagpie :). My new bedspread is so comfy omg. It's green velvet and it's so fucking soft. It's like a cloud. I've taken the entirety of my soles of the heels of my feet off where I can reach with my teeth. I'm not very bendy anymore so fresh patches is getting hard to find. I think walking through it at work is damaging skin growth where I've skinned but I need money lol.
* Purged my old entries. I've had bad nausea today. I went to the bathroom at the pub and vomited after eating. It was just far too fatty or something. My skinning has come back full-force and my feet are raw from it. I've not got too much blood on my sheets thankfully but I'm due to wash my sheets soon anyway.